"You want me to do what, God?"

"You want me to do what, God?"

faith, trust god
How many of you have received a word from the Lord that gave you pause? That made you say, "You want me to do what, God?" I have. I have received a few of those words, that I didn't quite understand, yet most times, I obeyed. The times that I didn't obey, I paid the price. We do suffer many things, not from the enemy or the Lord, but by our own decisions. You do know that, right? Some things are just us. We need to get out of our own way. The Lord says that obedience is better than sacrifice. (1 Samuel  15:22) Also, understand these 3 things. (I cited these 3 from jolly notes.com, but agree with them 100%) #1 God is still God – God is still…
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Take the Mask off! I did.

faith, Identity in Christ
As I sit here reflecting over my life, I am thankful to be alive and in my right mind. I was in such a dark place many times in my life. I had such a veil over my eyes. So much confusion. There were things that happened to me when I was younger that threw me in a tailspin and my life took off in crazy directions. How many can relate? The Lord has been dealing with me about my testimony and being transparent. He wants me to share and help others. It is difficult to be completely open. It's a vulnerable place. The court of public opinion is rough. I think about my family. The ones who don't know it all. I think of my church members. Yes, everyone…
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Silent Tears…

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Today I woke with tears in my eyes. Silent tears--There was no sound. No cry escaped my lips, yet the tears flowed freely. I miss my mom, more than anyone could possibly know. Internal pain and hurt. Sometimes pain can be so great that a sound won't come through. It can be so great that you are in the room but not present. You have a smile that doesn't reach your eyes. You search for an escape. Somewhere to run from "Are you ok?" and "What's wrong?" You hear it, you want to answer, but knowing as soon as you start, your chest will heave and your shoulders will go slack and it will be over. All the silence is now so loud, it's yelling at you like a bullhorn.…
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When your reality conflicts with what God said…

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How many of you are in a transitional phase of your life? You've received a word from the Lord and you are waiting for it to manifest.  The reality of your situation is not lining up to what was spoken. You're waiting on God, but my question is: How are you waiting?  Let's consider, two examples: God spoke a word to Abraham that He will bless his seed with land. He said that all the families on earth would be blessed through him. He told Abraham that he could count the stars in the sky and that's how many descendants he would have. Abraham and his wife, Sarah, were wondering how when they didn't even have a son to begin with. Also, he and his wife were very old, well past child…
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Where we are weak…

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God is strong.  The Lord says that where we are weak, He is strong. ​​ “Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” ‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭12:9‬ ‭NLT‬‬  “So be strong and courageous, all you who put your hope in the Lord!” ‭‭Psalms‬ ‭31:24‬ ‭NLT‬‬ When do you actually find out how strong you are? When do you find out what you're made of? How much can you endure?  It's through trials and tribulations that we all face in the world.  I was sitting outside this morning enjoying my coffee and reflecting on this season of my life.  I was reflecting on the…
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