Take the Mask off! I did.

faith, Identity in Christ
As I sit here reflecting over my life, I am thankful to be alive and in my right mind. I was in such a dark place many times in my life. I had such a veil over my eyes. So much confusion. There were things that happened to me when I was younger that threw me in a tailspin and my life took off in crazy directions. How many can relate? The Lord has been dealing with me about my testimony and being transparent. He wants me to share and help others. It is difficult to be completely open. It's a vulnerable place. The court of public opinion is rough. I think about my family. The ones who don't know it all. I think of my church members. Yes, everyone…
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Silent Tears…

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Today I woke with tears in my eyes. Silent tears--There was no sound. No cry escaped my lips, yet the tears flowed freely. I miss my mom, more than anyone could possibly know. Internal pain and hurt. Sometimes pain can be so great that a sound won't come through. It can be so great that you are in the room but not present. You have a smile that doesn't reach your eyes. You search for an escape. Somewhere to run from "Are you ok?" and "What's wrong?" You hear it, you want to answer, but knowing as soon as you start, your chest will heave and your shoulders will go slack and it will be over. All the silence is now so loud, it's yelling at you like a bullhorn.…
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It's Enough!

faith, Grace, Identity in Christ
  2 Corinthians 12:9 AMP “but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My loving kindness and My mercy are more than enough--always available--regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me.” As Believers, sometimes we feel that we are not enough, or aren't doing enough. Don't let us mess up, this leads to feelings of unworthiness. I've felt this way before and I thank God for helping me to see who I am and His love for me. We won't always get it right. If you are…
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The "C" Word

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What word comes to mind for you? In my life right now, the word, Cancer comes to mind. It's what I have been dealing with since I received the call in December of 2016 confirming my diagnosis after mammograms, ultrasounds and biopsies. Cancer sucks, by the way. A double mastectomy with lymph node axillary dissection followed in January of 2017. Stage 3 Metastatic Breast Cancer was the official diagnosis when it was all said and done. Another C word that accurately describes my feelings after receiving the news was, confused.  I was unable to think clearly. Quite bewildered. How could I have cancer? Why do I have cancer? So many questions came to my mind. Things were going so well for me in my personal and professional life. I had school…
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Can anything good come out of Nazareth?

Identity in Christ, trust god
Can anything good come out of Nazareth? (John 1:46) Yes, that is what Phillip said. The people were saying, "Come, we have found the Christ that was spoken of by the prophets. "Some did not believe Jesus was the son of God. "Isn't that Joseph's son?" They would ask. "How can he claim to be the son of God or to come down from heaven. We know his parents" they would also say in disbelief. (paraphrasing John 6:42) Yes, he was Joseph's son in the natural. They were correct, but He was Jesus! Son of the living God! He was Immanuel, God with us. Our Heavenly Father allowed him to grow and live as a human. He loved us so much that He gave His son. (John 3:16) He was called to…
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When your reality conflicts with what God said…

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How many of you are in a transitional phase of your life? You've received a word from the Lord and you are waiting for it to manifest.  The reality of your situation is not lining up to what was spoken. You're waiting on God, but my question is: How are you waiting?  Let's consider, two examples: God spoke a word to Abraham that He will bless his seed with land. He said that all the families on earth would be blessed through him. He told Abraham that he could count the stars in the sky and that's how many descendants he would have. Abraham and his wife, Sarah, were wondering how when they didn't even have a son to begin with. Also, he and his wife were very old, well past child…
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